Some notes on the Life-force

The parts of life worth living are cowardly movements that crawl under subterranean battlegrounds. That’s why living life to the fullest is cowardly at it’s core – one always takes advantage of another soul’s flow of life-force. I’ve said that the life-force is the life one takes away from someone else’s “soul” in order to self-feel. Self-feeling is the feeling of worthiness. Let’s say someone insults you (and for argument sake, you got your feelings hurt). We’ll talk about symbolic dying latter. If that person who insulted you wins the argument, then that person has the luxury of self-feeling off of your humiliation. And the sociatital contract is that you must recognize the transaction under the assumption that he or she was owed life-force. There’s was an impasse somewhere and someone had to take on the job of losing. So then if you believe you had nothing to do for you to accrue your opponent’s life-force, why then isn’t being the better man (or women) a viable option? To simply walk away like these mature adults say they do. Or pretend to feel offended while in fact your just playing the part for the sake of moving on? Why can’t you simply walk away and bite the bullet?

The infinite hell

You can walk away. The incorrect answer always attributes walking away to emotional intelligence. The reasoning goes like this: “as long as you are physically alive and well, you’re fine to just walk away and let him or her deal with the problem. It’s their problem, not yours” says the psychologists. If you look into today’s self-help literature, recent trends urges people stay honest like in the book “Radical Honesty” by Brad Blanton. Meaning you don’t walk away if you genuinely feel insulted. Radical Honesty instructs readers to show true emotion and stay with the uncomfortable emotions. Otherwise, this argument rests on yielding to emotional outrage. This is where the rationalists come up with a scientific explanation of using emotional intelligence. While they got the science of the emotional brain right, it’s merely a quantitative symptom of the reactive brain. The science takes credit for the underground battle that genealogical dose at a societal level. The adult will try to investigate the motivation of the aggressor to go off on him. This is exactly what the aggressor wants. The aggressor, bully, or sadist savors on this type of hell. Hell of infinite regression

Everybody wants the same thing, nobody wants to want different things anymore

All successful self-feeling happen within the Modus Operandi. That’s why the default route of western civilization is the capitalist one. The only reason why someone would want socioeconomic status, is to stand objectively in a world in order to understand it. This understanding of the world is robust enough to assemble a modus operandi. These operations are reactive spiritual revenge but on a deep powerful level. But why would anyone want to do this? This is the same question rationalist ask when they learn about sociology. Their reasoning goes: “someone insulted you? Who cares… As long as you’re physically alive, your feelings shouldn’t matter…” Or worse, “you got your feelings hurt?? Oh boohoo, grow up.” What they fail to understand is that self-feeling is necessarily cowardly at its deepest… Look at my post on vitalism. Except that in an individualist society, being cowardly is not highly regarded as. So cowardly moves must assembled and regarded as worthy. That’s why someone who wants to be worthy of life must make his life harder on purpose. He wants a worthy enemy.

The only solution is the IDGAF solution.

Animalistic determinism is binary. In nature, the winner of an encounter would kill or seriously injure an intruder, competitor, or a predator. This is nature’s equivalent of remaining worthy. Remaining worthy indicates the organism is alive. An organism doesn’t get to experience loss as they’re already dead or eaten up by the time they get “depressed”. Primitive societies gain social intelligence but there is still a binary system. The bigger male gets the resources, food, and mates. There are no “if, ands, nor buts” and if someone challenges the alpha male, they must win by force. As societies progresses into hierarchies, then states, then to current civilization, this binary disintegrates and worthiness can be won by arguments. Socially intelligent mammals like humans and chimpanzee stop going after their natural enemies and create artificially complicated ones. Intelligent animals learn how to read each other and regard the future as well as the past. They must brace themselves in order to survive. They internalize their instincts and recognition are stored in their symbolic inner self. This is what is known as the materialization of the soul

What the State does with life-force and how commerce collects it

But what does this look like? It’s not that there’s an imaginary health bar at the top of each person’s head during a verbal argument. Or a conveyor belt between two people’s soul in a tug-o-war fighting for life-force. The life-force transaction is instantaneous. It’s like a one time payment. To the contenders, it is a fight to the death. Taking it back to Nietzsche’s hypothetical credit-debit system, when the creditor inducess pain onto the debtor, then the creditor can self-feel as the torture incurs. Once the creditor self-feels, the creditor has received the debtor’s payment. This movement of life-force is so intrinsic to us that it is responsible for our species ability to live peacefully in society. When these forces “spill out,” we experience contention and spiritual instability. With the Death of God, the state allocates the same amount of life-force at the start of life with no discrimination. Commerce works with altruism to manipulate dignity to hold on the this life-force. The more capitalistic a society is, the more communistic the life-force is felt. Everyone is worth something and no one should be treated inferior, because that’s a cowardly move.

It is in territorialized space that people give up their permission to be treated with respect and allowed for supperiors to insult them so they could “learn to be better men.” If someone insulted you and a person receives pleasure off your bad-hurt, he or she is called a sadist. But in territorialized space, where everyone acts like an adult, the insult would train the one who was insulted to become more resilient, in other words, there is no such thing as words that can hurt you, only ones that build you up. So the sadist became an altruist in territorialized space. This is the spirit of capitalism. This spirit is desired by everyone that wants to injure a person without them knowing. This is the insult at it’s finest. Being able to injure a person internally is the stencil of modern day revenge. But to do it in a way that the plane of which their enemy’s inner city, crumbles as time moves on. There’s a catastrophic calamity that puts the enemy into a depressive state where the initial conditions where set up by the sadist. The capitalist drives oscillate around sado-masochism. The relation between the sadist and the masochist become more creative as the life-force necessary moves between winner or loser, never communally shared.

The will-to-power drives life-force into souls necessarily, that’s why successful insults are always cowardly and unfair. In territorialized space, this dynamic is clear. There is no arguing back because the insult is treated as a lesson, as a way to build up an average person in the presence of a high status person. There’s a teacher-student dynamic. The active force is the capitalist drive. Capitalists make the world go around. Capitalist are responsible for the flow of resources to impressively hold 7 billion people. Capitalists are creative about their flows of money and capital. They are responsible for the prosperity more people than ever. The unequal distribution relay in their work ethic and their production. Very few capitalists sacrifice most if not all of their lives for the benefit of the average person. They are more altruistic than all the charitable forces and the welfare forces combined. But Deleuze realized that active forces can become reactive-becoming by reactive forces impeding active forces from continuing to produce. The unequal production of flows of the capitalist to the average population is also their blindspot. As the capitalist work to advance civilization to a level no one has ever seen before, the average person who doesn’t even match their work ethic are capable to bring it down. Despite having themselves benefited by the capitalist for generations, the average person will overthrow and claim credit for all the work the capitalist sacrificed for. This is how history has always unfolded. Unfairness beats unfairness. For now the capitalist can love altruistically, meaning all the sadists who recieve pleasure from watching the average person with envy losses this ability to self-feel in territorialized space. Capitalism builds up their workers, civilians, and enemies to their level. Only those with the will to power can tug on the plane, just give it a little nudge to induce rage onto a person. With enough codified feedback loops, socioeconomic status, wit, and whim, the sadist can conduct an inception to just about anyone he or she wants.

This memory that the loser has of himself is informed by the collective negative feedback loops society codified starting from a homeostasis at the beginning of humankind

Everything feedback loops back to the present. Pretending your feelings are not hurt will just upgrade the system to take that into account. It ruins it for everyone else once enough people contribute to the feedback loop. The way people can genuinely self-feel in this complected chess game of life is to use a buffer strategy. An example would be when someone clings to an ideology. There, you can join a winning group and the combined forces of the group can win life-force from another groups’ souls. A political group, a religion, an institution, an ideology, or culture are buffers. A business is not a buffer because businesses and commerce produces physical currency. People are looking to materialize their souls. This roundabout way did not appear intentionally. This is the consequences of negative feedback loop from the weak, those who protect themselves against the wolves. Those who study the reactive brain. Those who hoard the life-force to themselves and poison the entire well. Those with ressentiment.

Let’s say someone identify with an ideology because they want to be on the winning side where they can catch their opponents in a stupid moment. They want a moment where they can humiliate their opponent losing face and self-feel off of their humiliation. As mentioned before, this humiliation can serve for the loser as a learning opportunity. Sadists do not want this transaction to serve as a learning opportunity. The sadists in the community or group want to conduct an inception. Like mentioned in one of my previous posts, an inception is where a memory is formed in the mind of the loser in that he is branded a loser, stupid, or an idiot. Society’s coded contractual agreement has it that the loser recognizes himself inside the mind of the sadist. The sadist agrees to recognize the loser inside of him. The sadist continuously humiliates his opponent through pseudo-telekinetic torture and perpetually self-feels. This memory that the loser has of himself is informed by the collective negative feedback loops society codified starting from a homeostasis at the beginning of humankind. The loser perpetually losses life-force because he is locked into an inception that the sadist implanted in him. Recognition is defined as, “you bear[ing] obligations to treat her in a certain way, that is, you recognize a specific normative status of the other person” As mentioned in the Stanford encyclopedia of philosophy. But if the loser becomes a masochist meaning that he genuinely self-deprecates, then the sadist is revealed too much of a coward and no life-force transfers. At its core, the conflict is proper. The conflict is fair in that it is written contractually that the humiliation is welcomed as form of learning experience. The sadist would rather have a worthy opponent in that the opponent is mentally stable and inept so that things naturally unfold. A play where the opponent is willing to self-deprecate indicates the person is mentally unsuited for an inception. So the sadist must build his opponent up before conducting an inception. This is where capitalistic altruism is born. The true capitalist love is building a person mentally well enough for him to torture himself to the fullest.

The Death Gaze

Stephen Jenkinson is a modern day sage for the youth. He works in palliative care counselling the elderly on dying in their last few moments of life left. The profession of preparing old people to die has levels of condescension to it. (So you mean to tell me that the undying can give advice to the dying on how to die…?) Yet counselors like Jenkinson are still sought after by many dying people. Jenkinson gripes about having people pedestalize him as if he’s an authority figure of dying. He refuses titles, awards, and accolades and aggressively denies being a modern day spiritual guru. Even though he counseled more than 1500 of people who have died, he doesn’t sugar coat it. He still believes death is the all terrible, all frightening horror it’s supposed to be. Just imagine all your worst fears of death and have it increased by a thousand! He isn’t vocal on politics but the very few he does voice out are political inquiries related to The Death Trade. During an interview at LondonReal, Brain, the host asked him about the consequences of living in a culture that denies death and are death-phobic. Jenkinson responds that the proper way to die in a death-phobic culture is a death where one is killed. In other words, one dies when one feels ready for it. My thesis is that modern day dying (and the legacy from which we got the modern medical system for the dying) fuels this sickness of preparing to grow up into adulthood is a resentment of being alive. This insidious feedback loop instills in youth-culture a disparate paranoia for having to live out their childhoods on time, making their entire growing process a longing for their missing childhood. This longing then keeps moving on into not having their toddler years lived properly, then their tween years missing, then their teenage years, their late teens, early adult, mid adult and so on. The unquestioning virtue of more life gave this generation a disastrous run for catching up to their lives not yet reached.

Somewhere, someone robbed us of our opportunity to live freely. But what we really lost is the ability to give honor to our enemies. This is the consequences of more life, more experience.

One of Jenkinson’s big assertion is that we are all orphans. On the London Real podcast, he states that westerners have no real heritage. It is all left over there. Westerners are running away from something in the same way ancestors who crossed the atlantic ocean to get here were also running away. We stare back at them through stories, picture frames, or genealogy relics from a different era.

The Death Gaze

After the all funerals we feel obliged to attend, we are advised to mourn, grieve, and do whatever we have to do move on. “Leave the dead with the dead” as there’s work to be done on this earth. This advice reflects the unchallenged notion of life, more life, more experience, more success in life is always better. But in the spiritual realm, it betrays our heritage. When it comes our turn to die, as we lie down at our deathbeds with our children and family members looking down at us, we realize that in between those smiles, tears, and gazes, just as we were in that same position of looking down at those who were dying, now that it is our turn one realizes how easy it was to move on and forget him. Just as we were advised to move on, forgive, forget and live our lives, it stares at us in the face and there’s nothing we can do but push up daisies from the ground 6 feet above us. Give it 3 or 4 generations, and we too will join this death gaze of being a mere photo sitting on the ledge to be used as memory for all the others to see. This is why we are truly afraid to die. Our success, our power, our legacy, our wealth are what will remain after we die. In the modern era, we die even before our physical death. When all these projects we set for ourselves fail, we take a hit to the soul. As we age, the glory of youth and endurance, and strong minded fades away more and more.

Our life momentum is losing inertia. It’s forward focused. Not in the time shooting in one direction like an arrow. But retroactively in an aggregate-generational direction. If we think about what the word “intergenerational” means, we immediately think about the conflict. We think about the conflict between boomers, millennials, and newer generations to come. The aggregate-generation would be the generation of a boomer if he or she were to be born in 1884 instead of 1984. Would live dramatically different lives? What would the equivalent of generation z would be in the 1880’s? There are negative and positives forces that move up and down within the aggregate-generation. The very top is where the life-force momentum begins. Which would be the the the latest generation alive, baby boomers. To begin at the last few moments of life is most important because “how you die, is the next generation’s teacher” (Jenkinson, 365). One can only imagine the experience of living the very last moments of life. Some say the fears death is irrational, but to me, it is the last unknown. Jenkins points in his book Die Wise that most of the elderly in critical condition are sedated and given antidepressant (Jenkinson 184). What do you think happen to those who see grandpa or grandma in this condition? Imagine those in assisted living realizing that they are next, “this will be me.” Nobody wants to be on the borderline of life and death with tubes sticking out of their orifices and family and friends watching them as they lie there. Why not just get it over with? Here is where we take this life-force one step down the intergenerational ladder. What would those who retired in their 60’s or early 70’s think of those in assisted living. Nobody wants to be abandoned by their own child put into an assisted living facility by their 80’s, and having a nurse attend to their basic needs. Their grown child would rather have their parents in a facility somewhere only to come by on Thanksgiving for a week. Possibly a guilt felt though families where the parent feels an obligation to get out of the way and not move in with their child out of the respect of giving their children a chance to live a “full life.”

The Hourglass: Gentrification of the Life-force

From taking an anecdotal look at history, retirement used to be the dream life. The American Dream benefited those 20 years in between the working family man and assisted living. The “greatest generation” who came out of two wars just wanted to retire for a good 20 years. The next step down the ladder was the generation who enjoyed the American dream in the 1950’s: The Working family man. Everybody wanted to be the stable worker in the 1960’s and 70’s. The America of back then experienced liberation, counterculture, hippies in the greatest country in the history of the world. The American Dream started to take form. But Jump down another ladder, everybody wanted to be the hip yuppie working on wall street in the 1980’s. Look at what is happening? Flip the hourglass and realize that as time progresses forward, the life-force (life worth living) is retrograding to the bottom. As the life-force trickles down the intergenerational timescale, the aggregate-generational timescale experiences a negative feedback loop with the life-force gentrifying itself to those experiencing life. The stable hardworking man who moves to the suburbs to settle down with a wife and kids lost it’s flair during yuppie culture, the “American Dream” of retiring lost it’s flair during the technological revolution.

This is where my generation, the late millennial, born in the digital revolution, has the gift 20/20 hindsight vision

Jump down another step and people can feel the acceleration weighing down on them. Living in the 1990’s was the last greatest time bearable enough to walk through deterritorialized space in major cities. Being in your 30’s meant floating around not really knowing where to go but still contributing to one’s family and the community while one find oneself. One can take a few breaks here and there and have manageable anxieties about the future. One has ability to move around, experiment, try out things, and move to the outskirts of the city if things didn’t work out the way one thought. With the help and support of friends, it was a pleasurable time lost in nostalgia. But the thought of choosing one stable path was suspicious to the 30 year old. Looking forward to your 40’s had its upsides like money, stability, and freedom. But no 30 year old man was looking forward to aging during the rise of smartphone in the digital age.

20’s are the new 20’s

This is where my generation, the late millennial, born in the digital revolution, has the gift 20/20 hindsight vision. Being in your 20’s will be the best years of your life. The effects of living in today’s era is experiencing the madness of leaving your 20’s. Fewer and fewer people want to leave their 20’s even to start a family. More celebrities are in their 20’s. Careers are chosen from people in their 20’s. Parents are making their child go to dance, boxing, hiking, singing, learn an instrument, learn fashion, go on dates, have fun even before they turn 20. There’s a sickness being felt, a guilt somewhere. People are feeling the effects of institutions taking the joy out of simply existing. One can not even stand and not have their dignity insulted for “being lazy.” There can’t be a break anymore. Having gaps in your resumes will deter employers from hiring you. There must be movement somewhere. We are feeling the effects of accelerationism. Even today, teenagers at 15 years old are becoming celebrities though their smartphones from apps like Instagram, Snapchat, and Tik Tok. You’d think we need to wait another generation for this to happen but there doesn’t need to be a 15-20 year wait to go down the intergenerational ladder anymore. As I write this, Lil Tecca, a 16 year old rapper from New York got signed by Republic Labeled after a break out single “Ransom” that hit number 4 in the Billboards Hot 100 (Fu). More and more young people are getting responsibility. A 30 year old would represents everything that a 20 year old doesn’t want to be.

The Rise of the Black-pill

A teen can’t have real responsibility right? WIth technology and the help of their parents, teens and even tweens becoming famous personalities through their smartphones. Undergrad college is the new University experience of the 90’s. Kids can experience stardom that an established songwriter in the 1950’s could only dream of. Pretty soon, it will be high school that will be the last greatest time to be alive. The life-force is being pushed to the front-end not in a life affirming way, but a running away from the responsibilities of having to grow up. If you’ve read my post on vitalism, a necessary majority must be present at the bottom to sustain an exponential rise of a shrinking minority. This insidious feedback loop has one conclusion to those unfortunate enough to be a majority.

The Rise of the Pre-parent

Molecular technology will be what moves the universal novelty out of humans as a species entirely. We will be what atoms and molecules are to living bodies. With genetic splicing technologies, pre-parents can pick the attributes they want for their children. No doubt it will be through an app, where parents can have their babies custom made. Even before an infant is born, they will have their body shape, personalities, gender, fitness, and every attribute selected for them through the touch of a screen. I think of a Black Mirror scenario where a cartoonish toddler programed into a smartphone will be the sensation of the world. The toddler will have cute freckles, playful personality, colorful clothes chosen for them and a funny voice to be auditioned in America’s favorite toddler. Once technology catches on, the toddlers will gain sentience of their own. Then it will be time for the toddler’s data to be transduced into genetic information. This will be the new way of being born. Injected with information, outside the uterus, in an artificial womb created from a 3D printer. Being a toddler will be the last great time they’d have.

I can’t imagine how things will turn out if an entire cyber-community of data realized that “being born” will mean taking on responsibility and suffering. Wouldn’t they try to rebel as teenager rebel from their parents?

Jenkinson, Stephen. Die Wise: A Manifesto for Sanity and Soul. North Atlantic Books, 2015. Print

Fu, eddie; delisamarie; Hill, Tia. Genius Behind the Rise Of Lil Tecca. Genius Media Group Inc., 2019